this is not an emo post.

i am really far behind for my finals. and i'm staying that way. damn i feel friggin lazy.
everyday i'd push myself to study but end up doing sumthn else. maybe i should be pressured by parents like back in high school. dang so not independent.

where have all my inspirations and motivations gone? and when did it go away? just when i need it the most.
most things in life are not there when u need em.

i guess i've passed my peak. perhaps i shouldn't have excelled so much in studies in my younger days. ppl are alwiz saying im smart coz of pts but wtf? its not tat i did the Mensa test or sumthn rite? ok im smart la but just lazy, definitely.

alwiz playing game. no life says shi wei. study oso no life la rite. but no study then no future. swt. life's a bitch, always is.
and im not emo. just a tad disappointed with myself. sumbody slap me. pls.
off to CSO -.-"